Dear Friend,
Autumn greetings and good wishes to you!
I hope that you are well in every way.
The past month has been a time of gatherings for me.
I have just returned from a few precious days of a European Buddhist Teachers’ meeting. It took place in the beautiful, peaceful Chan Centre near Zagreb in Croatia. Twenty of us were able to meet as dear Dhamma friends. We explored many aspects of practice in all our different Buddhist traditions. This was a heartwarming and joyful time.
Also I have been meeting with a group of old school friends. We are all turning 60 this year and seem to have time nowadays to reach out and reconnect. So much rich sharing of our various lifetimes!
Here are images from my Thai Buddhist schoolfriend Cat’s garden. Little did we know as girls that I would become a Buddhist nun and our sharing would extend to the liberating Buddha Dhamma!
And I have visited our new forest monastery, Lena Bhavana, in Apulia, Italia.
It comprises 136 acres of forest and two large fields for permaculture. This will be the ground for bhikkhunis and bhikkhus to train and for lay people to develop their practice living simply in nature.
The nearby town of Acqua Viva Della Fonte is an hour’s walk away for alms round. There is a deep well with abundant sweet water. There are the sacred caves of St Elia, the heart of the monastery. It is surrounded by farmland and olive groves.
There are a number of large buildings with thick walls, built to last. Although work needs to be done to restore them, we envisage a kitchen and dining area, indoor meditation spaces and some accommodation and even retreats happening in the not too distant future.
Here we are with the beginnings of the monastery library and with wooden Buddhas - all donated by dear Dhamma sister Sheila Kirwan. Thank you Sheila!
Late summer greetings from the Engish countryside.
Here, the season is gently starting to shift into autumn/fall. Leaves are changing, crops are being harvested, birds are feasting. There are berries in the hedgerows, fruits ripening. We’re easing into shorter days, chillier evenings and mornings.
I feel how this changing season naturally invites reflections on the passing of time. As abundant growth fades and turns into the ground for the next arisings, there’s a clear invitation to join in the dance of life, loosen up and let go of any resistance to its ebb and flow.
Anicca!
“When your house is on fire
You rescue the pot
that is useful.
Not the one that is burnt.
As the world is on fire
With old age and death
You should rescue
by giving.
Only that which is given
Can be rescued”
AN 3.52
I turned 60 this month.
Bodily changes are almost imperceptible year on year, but accelerate with age don’t they? I’m noticing the odd wrinkle, softening skin, sometime stiffening joints, more fragility and vulnerability, a less reliable memory . . .
How is it to embrace this incredible embodied journey we are on? How can we ‘be the Buddha seeing the Dhamma’ at every turn?
Here is a talk from this past month on old age, sickness and death.
A 45 minute guided meditation followed by some conversation about meditation practice
Some reflections from this past month . . . On the topic of “Making Peace” . . .
Whenever we think we know something, whenever we therefore think we’re right about anything, let’s remember the Buddha’s teachings. His teaching is, “Don’t hold on to those views!”
Don’t think you have got it sussed. Don’t think you understand. Don’t allow the mind to narrow down and fixate and hold to any kind of view whatsoever.
Why not?
Because any view whatsoever is going to create suffering when we hold to it and reify it and make it something like a permanent or secure or safe concept for us.
“The Tathagata has woken up to the highest,most excellent peace.
That is, the freedom from clinging.”
MN120
To let go is the ultimate peace, the peace that we are all seeking. All beings are seeking that peace, that rest.
We may not feel that we are seeking peace. It’s something of an acquired taste. People actually love their suffering. People love turmoil. We love to be agitated and troubled, because it gives us a sense of self, it defines us. It gives us a sense of mission or something to do, something to relate to.
So we can be very strangely comfortable with our suffering, strangely wiling to continue to suffer, because we don’t know any better.
And so maybe the first step one could take towards peace is to recognise its value.
How do we get to recognise the value of peace, of letting go? Of letting go from clinging to any kind of view, or ideology, from ingrained habits and compulsions.
First, meditation gives us a window, a doorway to noticing how peace is something to value, something precious, priceless.
And then as we begin to take in the Buddha’s teachings, we can apply the Eightfold Path to our lives and we have the chance to notice how keeping the Precepts, practising virtue by speech, action and livelihood, how these Path aspects bring peace in their wake . . .
And then, the mental development aspects of Path, the meditation aspects, Right Effort, Right Mindfulness and Right Focus or Stillness, Concentration. These also incline us ever more towards peace, towards letting go.
The Buddha’s teachings on sense restraint again quite naturally enable more space, more quiet time, supporting peace and well being.
And then we can practice self-effacement - investigating the teachings of MN 8 each day - considering and reflecting deeply on how the day has been, “Have I manifested any unwholesome qualities?”
We can literally peel away layer after layer of defilements when we apply ourselves in this way.
All of this is pointing towards goodness, towards peace, towards well being, towards, nibbana, towards letting go of all suffering.
The Buddha said that this foundation of peace in our hearts is the pacification of greed, hatred and delusion.
So this is the way to be peacemakers in the world. To deal with our own dark places, strongly held views, our own harming habits. To uproot them, let them go, pacify them.
Energetically developing good qualities in all the aspects of our life touched on here, we can eclipse the sources of suffering, of agitation entirely. And experience true and lasting peace.
A 40 minute guided meditation
folowed by a brief Q&A
Dear Friend,
As the northern spring rolls on into summer, can we give ourselves time out for meditation? Perhaps to enjoy peaceful places out in nature, quiet places to help us to practise, to cultivate mindfulness.
And when we’re in the midst of busyness, lots of things going on around us in the human realm, can we cultivate a sense of stillness, peacefulness and seclusion in the heart?
This quality of viveka, seclusion, doesn’t actually depend on being alone in quiet spaces. It depends upon a heart/mind of non-reactivity, through mindfulness, through presence. Making this our priority.
Can we do this? Can we put mindfulness first? Can we be aware even in the midst of the conversation? Even in the midst of family life? Can we maintain a degree of centredness?
So how do we cultivate emptiness?
Not through dwelling in states of peace and bliss in our meditation practice.
Well, we can have times when we have a real boost for our practice through peacefully abiding in meditation. But the point of meditation and cultivation of mindfulness, cultivation of stillness, is to be able to direct that very clear, bright mind to the sources of suffering. To root them out. To investigate the Dhamma here deeply.
Is there any desire at this moment? Is there any leaning away from the moment through aversion? Is there any confusion or delusion in the mind?
And we want to keep investigating and taking great interest in any manifestation of dis-ease here, any disharmony, any agitation here. That is our work.
To be awake to that and thereby to understand what is happening, to see the Four Noble Truths. To see suffering, to see, tease out, investigate what is the cause of this suffering
Dear Friend,
What is disillusionment?
It is the waking up to reality, where previously we were dreaming, we were not seeing clearly. We were assuming things were a certain way and actually, when disillusionment happens, its a recognition, “Well actually that’s not correct, they really weren’t like that. Things are not that way. OK. The reality is like this.”
And so, a growing up . . .
. . .To grow in wisdom is to be constantly disillusioned.
Because if we’re growing in wisdom, then we’re going to look back on how we understood things earlier and recognise that we were not seeing things as clearly as we are now. So by its very nature, growth on the Path is going to involve a falling away of illusion after illusion as ignorance is turned into knowledge and understanding.
So in this way of appreciating the benefits of disillusionment, we can be glad when our illusions are shattered, even if this may involve some disappointment, some upset, even despair, even trauma - when we assume things to be a certain way and we discover that they are not so.
We can see in the world around us that there’s a great need for people to step away from illusions and to wake up to reality - the reality of how we treat one another, the reality of how we treat the environment, the immature ways in which we relate to the animal world, the world of nature and to one another with callousness, disregard, disrespect - not recognising that in order to sustain our environment and our communities we have to work hard to look after one another and to look after our animal family and all the different species, all the different beings - to relate to them respectfully and with care, with Metta, with kindness, with compassion.
And to the environment also, the world we live in, which is impersonal. It doesn’t have views about things. The weather is completely . . . it’s impossible to offend the weather, or to disrespect the weather. The natural world around us is completely indifferent to our views and opinions about it.
But we do share this material realm, these elements. Earth, water, fire and air, space and consciousness are not unique to any particular being or any particular species.
And to consider this inter-relationship, this connectness, this web of life and health and that we have a part in this and its important for us for sure to take care of what we use, what we eat, how we live. Not to create a whole load of garbage. Not to make a mess of things. Not to destroy things. Not to obliterate nature in the interests of, what? Mining for diamonds? Mining for minerals, for what purpose? Burning oil, burning fossil fuels - a habit we’ve got into and one that is very destructive, very harmful for the entire environment in which we live.
And so in these ways, we need to wake up. We need to step away from the illusion of endless resources for our consumption. And to step away from treating others as anything other than ourselves.
If I hurt you then I hurt myself. If I harm any being, I’m harming myself. If I have the attitude of dehumanising or disconnecting from any other being then I’m dehumanising and disconnecting from myself. How much suffering, how much blindness in that?
And so to shed these illusions of perpetual benefits for the wealthy and privileged and disregard for the neglected and underprivileged . . . All of this, this is a growing up that so needs to happen.
And spiritually to be very awake to the willingness to let go. Let go of ideas. Let go of views. Let go of the sense of knowing anything at all. To be willing to be very open. To be a Holy Fool. To be an innocent.
And investigate these Dhamma Teachings again and again. And always with a fresh eye, a fresh heart. As if we’ve never heard them before. As if we really know nothing and we’re open to learning whatever we can.
Disillusionment can be a source of disappointment, sometimes even bitterness. You know, cynicism, turning away from situations.
It doesn’t have to be that way. Disillusionment is something we can notice and we can carefully choose our response. We don’t want to allow disillusionment to turn us away from the good, to stop us trying, to make us remove ourselves from the company of others, to dismiss or to give up on others if they are involved in this process of disillusionment that we’ve experienced, or we’re experiencing.
On the contrary, let’s consider being grateful for disillusionment. Let’s consider disillusionment as a gift. As a great boon, and a blessing and a benefit for us. Because its when the scales fall from our eyes, its when were growing up, part of the maturing into wisdom.
And so, can we combine, when we feel we’ve been disillusioned, we feel weve been let down in some way by those around us, by the teachings, by our understanding of the spiritual path . . . Whenever we feel let down by anything and disappointed, can we bring up gratitude in the heart? And see, “How can I use this disillusionment for Path? How can I turn this disillusionment into the wisdom that it is and bring it back into the mix.
Whatever situation we’re in, when we’re disillusioned we dont want to turn away, but rather to compassionately open to the truer understanding of the situation.
Dear Friend,
In many ways it’s normal for us to have a heart that is kind, that is compassionate, that is resting in well being. This is normal.
But we can be subject to the defilements of ill will, irritability, animosity, even hatred - through inner experiences and through interaction with the world around us - these defilements can come up.
And when this happens, when we’re caught up in aversion, in ill will, then loving kindness becomes something like an antidote. It’s a remedy. It’s a skilful important tool for us . . .
. . . It’s the ability to turn around even the darkest, most desperate kamma, the most difficult situations and bring in light. We can do this.
Let’s remember the power of love. How important and how needed it is in the world. How it transforms the world again and again. How this is a truly memorable quality that we can always access.
This is the real story of this existence in this human realm. This is the real story. This is the real history. That there is love. That there is compassion. That there is the rejoicing in the good of others, in the wellbeing of others. There is this this possibility of sharing. That there is peace here.
And it is up to each one of us to make it this way. We all have this responsibility.And its a call for us in every moment in a world that can seem so troubled, so desperately struggling and suffering, so confused, so misdirected the energies in this world, in this human realm. The priorities are really not such wholesome priorities often. There’s not a lot of morality necessarily manifesting on the grander scale in our human realm.
But we all have a responsibility to make it good. To make a difference and to transform the unskilful into the skilful. To transform hatred into love.
As the Buddha said, there is only one remedy for hatred, only one way out of hatred. The remedy for hatred is love.
So where there is hatred, where there is cruelty, where there is ill will, let’s remember we can bring in, we can generate and we can radiate this powerful quality of love.
How to witness reality to enable wisdom and free the heart from all suffering
A 40 minute guided meditation
on breath awareness
How Many Tears Have We Shed . . . ?
The noble virtue of patience, like a bridge over troubled waters
I’ve also been connecting with my dear old monastic Chan friend, Venerable Jin Ho, honorary chaplain at Bristol University. She is based at the vibrant Multifaith Chaplaincy in the heart of the city. To spend time with her is great Dhamma nourishment.
I am blessed to have the opportunity to offer teachings to her students and the wider sangha around her on Fridays in February.
May all know the peace of harmlessness, of kindliness.
May we all know the happiness of letting go of self centred habits.
May all beings open to the joy of serving and supporting one another, in peace and friendship.
** And a special announcement **
New monastery in Apulia, Italia
See www.emptycloud.it
for news and a chance to contribute
However it is for you, may the goodwill of this holiday manifest all around you and within you.
May we continue to develop tender hearts of compassion for the suffering in the world, rejoice in the goodness that is apparent and maintain loving kindness and peace as wise response to every situation.
". . . With sensual pleasures as the cause, sensual pleasures as the source, sensual pleasures as the basis, the cause being simply sensual pleasures - kings quarrel with kings, nobles with nobles, brahmins with brahmins, householders with householders, mother quarrels with child, child with mother, father with child, child with father; brother quarrels with brother, brother with sister, sister with brother, friend with friend.
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And here in our quarrels, brawls and disputes we attack each other with fists, clods, sticks or knives, whereby we incur death or deadly suffering . . . We take swords and shields and buckle on bows and quivers, and we charge into battle massed in double array with arrows and spears flying and swords flashing; and there we are wounded by arrows and spears, and our heads are cut off by swords, whereby we incur death or deadly suffering. This too is a danger in the case of sensual pleasures . . . the cause being simply sensual pleasures.
. . . And we charge slippery bastions, and we are wounded by arrows and spears, splashed with boiling liquids and crushed under heavy weights . . . And we break into houses, plunder wealth, commit burglary . . .
Thus, we, people indulge in misconduct of body, speech and mind. Having done so, on the dissolution of the body, after death, we reappear in states of deprivation, an unhappy destination, in perdition, even in hell. This too is a danger in the case of sensual pleasures . . . the cause being simply sensual pleasures.
And what is the escape in the case of sensual pleasures?
It is the removal of desire and lust, the abandonment of desire and lust for sensual pleasures. This is the escape in the case of sensual pleasures
The trauma that we share in our human family is surely all of our work. It is our Dhamma duty to attend to it, the air that we breathe, the life and death we all share.
Can our collective grief and trauma bring us closer together? Can we recognise our inseparability?
For how can I be happy without you sharing my happiness? And how can you be in fear and pain without me being affected?
May the practice of meditation continue to help and guide us in healing the human world from within. May we have the possibility to stop, to sit and to feel. To breathe deeply. To allow and to open to the collective suffering and make peace within us.
There is no other. We are us. All that happens in this world can be known, felt bone deep and understood. My body, my blood. One family, one land.
This is the invitation. From the broken hearted, the maimed and the defeated. From the unheard, the alone and the lost. "May we be seen! May we be heard! May we be held tenderly in consciousness. May our suffering be acknowledged, fully felt and owned. May we be welcomed warmly home. May we heal and know our true potential, the natural resting place that is love, compassion, joy and peace.
They are sickness, ageing and death. They remind us of the truth of our fragile existence.
Are are other heavenly messengers we could consider? War, famine, thirst . . . climate change?
The Buddha described the first three mentioned here - as well as the message of those who have renounced the world to follow the spiritual path, to search for truth.
Truth is elusive in our everyday life. Lies and distortions of reality are commonplace. It is difficult to know where we stand, to have any sense of common ground, or of any solid, secure foundation to rest upon. The Buddha told us that the whole world is shaking, unstable, inconstant. There is no refuge here for us.
The only shelter from the storms, the only real refuge is Buddha, Dhamma, Sangha. Simply put - awareness, truth and community. Or we could say, The Buddha, the Teachings and Those who have realised the way out of suffering by understanding the Teachings.
May we stand firmly in this Way of practice and be guided and nourished by the timeless Dhamma taught by the Buddha in northern India 2,700 years ago - that which is always apparent, universally applicable, freely offered to everybody everywhere.
are living with thirst, hunger, homelessness, destruction, fear, trauma and grief. They surely have a clearer sense of change, of loss and of impending death than most. They are living and manifesting now more than ever the vulnerability, the defencelessness of our human state. The heavenly messengers are all around for us to see.
May the sacrifice and immense suffering of the women, men and children in Gaza today be a source of liberation of hearts and minds so that this genocide can have some meaning, some purpose even as their immense suffering unfolds at this terrible time.
Free Palestine.
With the passing away of those conditions
Everything and everybody
(That includes you and me)
Deteriorates, ages, decays
Breaks up and passes away
And we,
Living in the forest of desires
Are entirely composed of the impermanent
And it confronts us when we look within
Mind and body Arising and passing away
So don't turn on the TV, go to the pictures, read a book seek some food
Or 100 other distractions Just to avoid seeing this
This is the one thing really worth seeing
For one who fully sees it in themselves is free.
Warm greetings and good wishes to you from early autumn breezes, reddening maple leaves, cloudy skies and chill morning air on a mountain ridge monastery in New Jersey.
The Vassa at Empty Cloud is coming to a close. It has been a precious time of communal harmony, shared Vinaya studies, walks in nature and Dhamma explorations over cups of green tea poured by our Venerable Abbot and brother Ayya Suddhaso.
I'm full of gratitude for fellow monastics Ayyas Suvijjana, Suddhaso, Sanathavihara, Soma and our inspiring teenage brother Samanera Vaddha for this time together.
I will be saying goodbye and returning to Europe in a few days, to spend time with family and friends in Ireland, Scotland and England for the month of October.
May I wish you all well in these times of great upheaval for brothers and sisters in so many parts of the world, where wild weather has been a cause of devastating loss of loved ones as well as homes and whole communities.
May our deepening understanding and practise of the Buddha's teachings in our lives bring inner safety and strength of heart, for self and others.
With Metta and appreciation, Ayya Brahmavara
Dhamma conversation with an assortment of great questions
from the Empty Cloud online community
Questions and answers
covering a broad range of Dhamma topics
from Empty Cloud monastery
Vassa 2023
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I am in the midst of the Vassa, or annual three months' 'rains retreat', at Empty Cloud monastery in New Jersey. We are a happy community of six monastics. This week we are focusing on meditation practice. Other times we give time and energy to Vinaya studies. It is good to learn from one another and to sit together.
We are offering teachings mostly in house, on weekends. These are not recorded. However there are also online Dhamma sharings a few times each week
- https://www.youtube.com/@BuddhistInsights/streams
This summer has felt to me to be the best of times to consider uncertainty, this aspect of anicca, as the climate has been changing even more rapidly than expected. We're all witnessing unprecedented ice cap melt, forest fires, floods and record breaking temperatures on both hemispheres of our beautiful planet.
With these events unfolding, I've been contemplating the Buddha's teachings on dependent co-arising, cause and effect. Recognising how nothing happens without reason. This great way of seeing gives perspective and even though the process is painful, leads to peace and understanding.
From this resourced vantage point, it seems clear that the call is for compassion, for kindness and for calm amidst the storms.
How may I help? Can I engage in rightful action to support myself and others?
Here are some reflections on this theme - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RXh6PCz8- . . . the Dhamma talk follows a 30 minute guided meditation.
May we all be guided in this enquiry by the Buddha's ever helpful, timeless Dhamma teachings
With an abundance of gratitude, good wishes and loving kindness for us all and for the Buddha Dhamma, our greatest treasure.
Monk Chat at Empty Cloud monastery is an invitation for all those random Dhamma questions that may pop up to be answered.
Here's Bhante Suddhaso and myself taking the opportunity to speak on Dhamma
thanks to these great Qs
A far ranging discussion on Dhamma
with Ayya Soma and Samanera Vaddha
with thanks to all the great Dhamma questions from our lay friends
With thanks to Venerable Ayya Khemavamsi
Sharing of experience of Samadhi practice
with fellow samanas Ayya Sudhasso and Ayya Khemavamsi
A conversation on Mána
with Ayya Khemavamsi Bhikkhuni
with Bhante Suddhaso
7 July 2023
Settling in at Empty Cloud monastery, it's a joy to see Ayyas Suvijjana and Soma along with Bhantes Suddhaso and Mettiko again.
I have the honour too of meeting two Venerable bhikkhunis from Thailand who are staying with us for two weeks - Ayya Punnyasiri and Ayya Khemavamsi
Last but not least, it's a joy to meet Samanera Vaddho, aged 19 from Ohio, a most inspiring younger brother who completes our happy monastic group of eight.
Here is a conversation with our esteemed visiting Thai Venerables -
First European bhikkhuni ordinations are happening today at Aneñja Vihāra in Germany - http://anenja-vihara.org/
Recently, the 80th birthday of most respected bhikkhuni Elder, Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo - https://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLQfTnGpIJDBQi8GIUtqcmIHdz4GuUhdij&fbclid=IwAR0mV4aMSn7v-wpVOBwKusgm4h05OdZoxIBLy34VSm3OPK0UseLBToAcw5g
40th Anniversary Celebrations today at Wat Buddhanusorn in California, dear Luang Por Ajahn Maha Prasert's 77th Birthday and his promotion by royal decree as a leading senior monk to "Chaokhun Thep." - https://www.watbuddha.org/
And tomorrow is Asalha Puja, the Full moon Uposatha Day and start of Vassa 2023 for many in the Theravada Buddhist world.
I'll be spending the Vassa at Empty Cloud - click the link below for the monastery website . . . so grateful to be able to practise with the Sangha there 🙏🏾
An interview with friend Kim Mulligan
on how to relate to anger
Meditating on the sea . . . opening the mind wide to aniccasañña, with the only constant the ebb and flow of the waves . . .
Grateful for practice in community, the opportunity to support respected senior bhikkhunis as they are in secluded retreat - Ayya Tathaloka here at Dhammadharini monastery and Ayya Sobhana at Aranya Bodhi, our redwood forest hermitage near the coast
Peaceful winter retreat time for the Sangha here, with occasional uplifting visitations from good Sangha friends.